THE START OF SOMETHING NEW

 "Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending."

I don't say that I'm a very mature person, I don't think anyone can, especially when they've just started understanding the complexities of life. and so, I'm not going to dole out expert advices on how to pick yourself up from a huge trauma, dust up and then start again, because that's what my mom does. Let's just let her do that. But what I will do is tell you my experience, something that helps me remember that there is always hope and second chances and adventure waiting for you. None of that will matter, if you don't take the first step and continue after you fall.

For most of the people my age, the fall may come in the form of heartbreak, heartache or a big fight with the family or a best friend. All of them are legit and can completely mess with you, I agree. But if you let it dictate your future, you are giving it power which isn't correct. So every time something like this happens to you, remember this.

Whenever you feel the worst about yourself, when you think your heart could break into a thousand little pieces and you would never become a whole person, when you think that every drop of sunlight has just disappeared from the earth, which is to say that you're very sad and crying on your couch or bed, Let It Out! we cry so that all the pain can finally leave our body. It's not wrong to cry, it's normal. When the pain we feel can't be shared by words, tears can help you let them out. And in most of the cases, you'll feel much better after you let it all out.

Because the endings are never the best. And nobody tells you about them. You always have to figure them out on your own. Sometimes, it may feel like it isn't really an end, but it still turns out to be. and when that happens, it is the worst (no surprises there). You can't talk, you can't open your mouth, you just lay silent on your bed and every time you feel words coming up and pushing to come out, all you can do is gulp them back down.

It will start to feel a lot like a disease when everyone around you wants to help, but nobody can really make it any better. When people start asking why you're shivering when it is 50 degrees outside and you'll have to explain to them that you're not cold outside, you're cold like all the sunshine has left your bloodstream and veins. You're cold like standing in a rain without an umbrella.

All endings are hard, but when it's a matter of love, it becomes even worse. because that heartache will feel a lot like that ghost which keeps following you everywhere. It will creep up on you and you will succumb to it every time because you never see it coming for you. It's like the nightmare which can give you chills and make you wake up in a sweat at 3 am and you want to call him/her to see if all that was really a dream. But don't. Don't make that call, and don't do it. this is something you can prevent. It's ok to push him/her out of your mind and it's okay to cry about it, but please don't let yourself fall victim to the sickness. You're stronger than that.

Life may not give you a lot of chances to reverse your mistakes, but you can always wait for that chance. And while you are, become better. Strive to achieve something. Become that person who wouldn't be afraid of the next step, and so wouldn't repeat his mistakes again. And I've always believed in this one saying,"It's not a mistake unless you start regretting it." And we only have space to regret a few things in our life, why make that list longer?

So end. Because if there is not end, there will not be a beginning. And it's not necessary that every end has to be a bitter one. Some of them may just be a pause for it to start again tomorrow. But you will never know that unless you start again. For if you don't give life a chance to move on, it will never let you come back again. Sometimes, you just know that it's time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings.

Let the magic sweep you away and I promise you that the tears will dry and the heart will mend itself because what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.