Dear Friend
As I comb through my old photo albums and the recent digital albums on my laptop, I see before memories collected throughout 21 years and some more. Each picture in my album tells me a story, a memory which is to be cherished for several more years to come. But, as each picture has a hundred words to say, it also brings the fact to life, that over the period of several years, I have managed to gain several people as friends, but lost several more too. and as I see all the posts on Facebook and dedications on instagram, I can't help but remember all the friends who meant the world to me int he past and what's become of them today. So, with a cup of coffee in my hand, I sit down to pen my apology (not really) to them.
"I don't hate you. Well, at least I am trying to see things differently. I know we avoid each other at every function, and are no longer Facebook friends. Truth is, I want to get a few things off of my chest. As much as I wish we could put everything behind us and go back to being the way we used to, unfortunately, things don't work like that. We are different people now.
You said some pretty nasty things to me, but I probably didn't react in the right way either. I told you about my problems, my accomplishments and my darkest secrets. Honestly I feel a little vulnerable that you know so much about me. What I want to tell you is: I don't trash talk you, even though you might think I do. I don't have anything bad to say about you. That's because I know all the great things about you.
What I want to tell you is: I will still be here for you. Don't get me wrong—I don't expect us to go out for a coffee date. We will never have the same relationship we once did. But if something was really wrong, and you had no one to turn to, you know I'd still do anything for you. You can come to me no matter how bad the circumstances are. You made me laugh 'til I cried on the floor. You would come get me unannounced. You stalked my crush for me. You let me borrow your favorite heels. We had so much fun together, it's strange to look back and see how such a great friendship ended so badly.
But what I want to tell you is: Thank you.
Thank you for being such a great friend to me the past few years. Thank you for reminding me that nothing is guaranteed, not even your friends. You have taught me more than you'd know. But I don't know you anymore and for that, I'm really sorry. But remember that you will always hold a special place in my heart, even though it is not the one I promised it would be."
That being said, it is friendship day afterall. And it would not be right if I were to forget the people who make it all worth being up and writing and reminiscing. So, this is my shout out to my crew, my home away from home, the people who take my drama and all that comes with it. Before I start, let me just say that I will not agree to any of it tomorrow.
"I'd like to believe that the people I will be spending my life with are the ones who have always been by my side (even when I was making the worst mistakes). I've always seen that we don't give our best friends their due credit (I don't). Sure, we tell them that we appreciate their support when we're going through a hard time. We'll write a long post on their birthday with a goofy picture, and tell others how amazing they are. But they do so many things that go unnoticed.
I want to thank my best friends for picking up my calls when I was bored and wanted someone to talk to. I wan to thank them for making my laugh on the days when all I wanted to do was cry. For answering hose voice texts and other messages in the dead of night because hey knew it was important for me.For saving me from the torturous drunken humiliation and taking care of me when hey knew I was totally, completely, and finally drunk. I wan to thank them for texting me to make sure that I reach home safe, or to bring gossip when they know I need it. For the small things. Thank you for being there through he heartache, all the breakups, Thank you for holding my hand during the bad and the good. Thank you for giving me the stability during this chaos I call my life.
It's so rare in life to find someone who understands you. Someone who can tell what you're feeling with just an eye roll or a smirk or a cringe. Someone who can figure out how you're feeling, when sometimes you can' even find he right words to express it yourself. I've been lucky enough o find more than one of these people. I've been lucky enough to find people who would go to battle for me, and for whom I would do the same. I've been lucky enough to have more than one soulmate. So, this is a thank you to my best friends, the friends that became family, the love that has been there from the very beginning; my real soulmates."
HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY.
To the ones I lost, and the ones I found on the way.
That being said, it is friendship day afterall. And it would not be right if I were to forget the people who make it all worth being up and writing and reminiscing. So, this is my shout out to my crew, my home away from home, the people who take my drama and all that comes with it. Before I start, let me just say that I will not agree to any of it tomorrow.
"I'd like to believe that the people I will be spending my life with are the ones who have always been by my side (even when I was making the worst mistakes). I've always seen that we don't give our best friends their due credit (I don't). Sure, we tell them that we appreciate their support when we're going through a hard time. We'll write a long post on their birthday with a goofy picture, and tell others how amazing they are. But they do so many things that go unnoticed.
I want to thank my best friends for picking up my calls when I was bored and wanted someone to talk to. I wan to thank them for making my laugh on the days when all I wanted to do was cry. For answering hose voice texts and other messages in the dead of night because hey knew it was important for me.For saving me from the torturous drunken humiliation and taking care of me when hey knew I was totally, completely, and finally drunk. I wan to thank them for texting me to make sure that I reach home safe, or to bring gossip when they know I need it. For the small things. Thank you for being there through he heartache, all the breakups, Thank you for holding my hand during the bad and the good. Thank you for giving me the stability during this chaos I call my life.
It's so rare in life to find someone who understands you. Someone who can tell what you're feeling with just an eye roll or a smirk or a cringe. Someone who can figure out how you're feeling, when sometimes you can' even find he right words to express it yourself. I've been lucky enough o find more than one of these people. I've been lucky enough to find people who would go to battle for me, and for whom I would do the same. I've been lucky enough to have more than one soulmate. So, this is a thank you to my best friends, the friends that became family, the love that has been there from the very beginning; my real soulmates."
To the ones I lost, and the ones I found on the way.
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